Pre-2003 Blues

My life has been a system of connections. A connection of people, events, and atrocities that brought me to who I am today. If good things are to happen, it follows up with the bad. I have moved on from many things that made me depressed, or regret. I can say that I have learned about the mistakes not to make again. The events that created me had to happen in order for me to understand something that I cannot state in words. My heart is in pain when I think about the previous systems that I have exiled myself or have been exiled from. But why dwell on it and cry for it’s return? Exiled from this system of mine, that brought me happiness as well as an option for me to change it. Now it’s all up to the people or my environment to dare to like me for who I am or to hate me for the choices I have made that could’ve affected them. As many people love to have many things the way they were before, I like the change in many social relationships and my environment of influences.